“One of the most courageous decisions you’ll ever make is to finally let go of what is hurting your soul.” – Brigitte Nicole
“The world needs more storytellers, dreamers, change makers, & action takers.”
“Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.”
“Keep going, because you did not come this far, to get this far.”
“Don’t let anyone tell you that your independence is the reason for you being single. Your strength as a woman isn’t the cause for your loneliness. You’re alone because you’d rather not entertain a weak man.” – r.h. sin
“It’s ok if you fall down and lose your spark. Just make sure that when you get back up, you rise as the while damn fire.”
“Nothing will ruin your twenties more than thinking you should have your life together already.”
“You are not too old and its is not too late.”
“I’m on the hunt for who I’ve not yet become.”
“And suddenly you just know it’s time to start something new and trust in the magic of beginnings.”
I wonder if its my anxiety that draws me to the practice of Divination. The possibility of answers in all of this unknown. The unknown that my anxiety likes to take and run for miles with.
The simplest form of divination is using a Pendulum. The essence of it is to connect with one’s own intuition and subconscious to find answers.
So how does one choose a pendulum?
My gut made the choice for me. I guess a more eloquent way to describe it would be, my intuition guided me.
As I was out searching the stores for incense and candles. I was drawn to an Onyx faucet pendulum. As soon as I saw it amongst the others. I knew, it was coming home with me. It wasn’t in my budget, but I did not care. I had to have it!
As I reflected upon this choice. I decided to research the stone I was drawn too.
Onyx is a very strong protective stone, it calms the mind and energies. Which helps to relieve worry anxiety. (POINT ONE FOR INTUITION!) The zodiac associated with it, is Capricorn (I’m a Capricorn!), its element is earth, (the element I seem to connect most with), and lastly the chakra associated with it is the root chakra. (still learning about that stuff… one step at a time)
So, after all that, I came to the conclusion. My intuition deserves a high five!
I hope with my intuition being on point, this means divination will come easier to me.
I am still getting to know my pendulum and myself, asking simple questions so I can get to know how it responds. Small “Yes” when I asked if I was 24 years old. A big “No” before I even spoke the words “Do I have a pet snake?”… I am terrified of snakes… In case you were wondering…
I hope to soon try to illuminate my path ahead. But all good things take time.
Here are a few quotes I wish to leave you with; as we all search for answers, in prayer, meditation, the advice of a friend, or even with a pendulum.
“There are years that ask questions, and years that answer.” – Zora Neale Hurston
“In your hesitation, I found my answer.” – Unknown
I have recently embarked on a journey to become a Wiccan.
Maybe you’re thinking this is an act of rebellion or a cry for help. But it’s the exact opposite, I am embarking on a journey of self discovery, self love, and empowerment. Its this journey that I wish to share with you.
There are so many aspects to discern and discover, am I a Kitchen witch? An Elemental witch? Do I prefer to practice in solitude, or in a coven?
So, far this has prompted more questions than answers. But I continue to search, within myself and out in the world. I know my path will become clear as time goes on.
But now I am taking the time to contemplate the upcoming Samhain, or as the rest of the world knows it, Halloween.
A time, associated with death, rebirth, transformation, and the passage from light to darkness. It’s a time to review life, celebrate achievements, honor your ancestors, and let go of your losses.
Honoring my ancestors will be an interesting endeavor. The ancestors I wish to honor the most, were Christian, and I feel honoring them in my Wiccan ways may offend them. I hope to explore how to navigate that interesting aspect in the years to come.
But letting go. That I think I am ready for… What I am letting go of I am not sure. But I feel it in my soul. I will be letting go of something and then I will fly.
“One of the most courageous decisions you’ll ever make is to finally let go of what is hurting your heart and soul.” – Brigitte Nicole
A little over a month ago I was really struggling… My mental health was in tatters and my physical health was not much better. I wasn’t sleeping, I wasn’t eating, I was making mistakes at work, and pulling away from my family and my friends. I don’t really remember what it was triggered by, I just remember I was drowning.
I was scrolling through Pinterest, looking for nothing in particular. When I saw this pin, it was a pastel colored background with the phrase “Just Breathe”.
And I did.
In and out. In and out. Breathe in for 4 counts. Breathe out for 5 counts. In and out.
I have never really been one for affirmations… Maybe I’m too jaded and broken. But that image. The frankness of its command? Demand? It spoke to me.
So, I went looking for more.
I found some that acknowledged my struggle, applauded my strength, and just eased my weary heart.
I wanted to carry them with me, not just in my mind, but somewhere I could see. I needed to see them. So, I grabbed a permanent marker and wrote them out, on my arms, and on my thighs.
I felt like I was donning armor, I felt stronger.
“You’re not a mess you’re brave for trying” “Sometimes its okay if the only thing you did today was breathe” “Just breathe” “I will win. Not immediately, but definitely.” “Real is Rare” “She persisted”
Since that day I have not needed my marker tattoos. But I still seek out quotes that speak to me and collect them, like pebbles.
They give voice to the words I cannot speak, ease my heart with no expectation of return, and strengthen me in such a simple way.
I want to share with you some quotes I have collected. Maybe they will help someone struggling, maybe they will just be.
Real is Rare.
Be gentle with yourself, you are doing the best you can.
Until I’m ready, let me be. I have to heal myself.
You wake up every morning to fight the same demons that left you so tired the night before, and that, my love, is bravery. – thislifethismoment.com
Your healing is about you. It doesn’t need a stamp of approval. Don’t worry about how long it takes or how ugly it may seem. Its about you.
What a beautiful thing it is, to be able to stand tall and say, “I fell apart, and I survived.”
No matter how chaotic it is, wildflowers will still spring up in the middle of nowhere. -Sheryl Crow
And here you are living despite it all. – Rumi Kaur
I forget how to love myself most days, but I keep trying, I keep trying. And that alone is a victory. – Alison Malee
…and sometimes, life is just hard, and some days are just rough… and sometimes you just gotta dry before you can move forward… (and all of that is okay) – www.bravegirlsclub.com
I also have some links to other blogs that have collected quotes to help when you are struggling here and here.
I do hope this collection helps someone as it has helped me. Please share feel free to share this post and follow me on Pinterest.